An Old One

It hurts too much,

I don't know how much longer I can hold on,

It just seems like I'm trying to keep something thats already gone.

I just need to let go,

but I'm not sure what causes more pain,

You're right,

after all,

what would we gain,

My heart is hurting and its hard to breath,

I know we don't have many options,

but this isn't something I wanted to leave.

I wish I didn't love you,

should I just pretend not to care,

Forget all those moments,

pretend that they're not there.

I'm tired of the tears

I don't know what else to do,

I'll just act how I don't feel

and say what isn't true.

I won't have any feelings,

I won't love you anymore,

We'll just go back to how it was before,

I'll leave you alone

and get out of you life,

I'll let you live,

Just you and your wife.

Regret Not Showing You

Another year has passed, already two years since we've met. 

We've had our good times and we have our bad times, 

but there's only a few that I regret. 

I should've let you love me when I had the chance.

I should've held on to your hugs, cherished all of your kisses, and embraced the romance. 

I regret getting scared and becoming numb to it all, 

but I know you can relate because we often share the same wall. 

Now I'm stuck on the other side and you wont let me in. 

I feel like giving up sometimes, but then i remember that this is a place that you too have once been. 

When you tried to love me, I knocked you down

and I knew there were only so many times that you could get back up before you turned around. 

Well now you're gone, but the vicious cycle does not end. 

Even when i say i'm done, I guess it's only for pretend.

I want to give you my love, I want to earn your trust, 

I want to sleep with your hugs, and your kisses I'll lust.

No one else will do.

Please believe that I want you only, 

These are the things I regret not showing you.