A poem for Mikey

An unhappy soul, lost in the abyss,
Say's he's lonely and has no one to miss.

Drinks till he's happy because he's had too much to care
No one to connect with, just a life and not a person with whom he can share

Someone to be there for him is all that he needs
And somewhere far away his true friend's plead,

"We love you Mikey aren't we enough?
We know it's been hard and life has been rough,

but you're looking for something that you've already got
you just don't realize it yet or maybe you forgot.

Distance shouldn't make a difference because we're here to stay,
and when you get lonely, we're only a text or phone call away.

And while it may not be the same as having somebody near,
soon it'll be better cuz you go home in a year.

When we see you like this, we hurt too
and we wish we had all the answers to help you get through

but for now all we can do is tell you we love you and be an ear
and if you need advice, we promise to be sincere.

We really hope you find enough reason to change your ways
and pray for you only brighter and better days

These are my feelings and I hope you give them some thought
And I hope to be a part of the happiness you sought

You're worth more than this Mikey, so keep your head high
and just think of this poem next time you're wondering why

Sweet Nothings

Late in the night he calls my name,
We're not looking for fortune,
We're not looking for fame.
Just he and I in the heat of desire,
Tonight I am his slave and he is my sire.
He tells me sweet nothings and for the while I'm okay,
I extend an inviting welcome and rid his worries of today.
He tells me to come, but I really should to go,
It's almost daylight now and where I am,
No one can know.
I grab my clothes and try to shake off his smell,
then hug him goodnight and kiss him
farewell.

Gone with the wind

Life is so confusing and I don't know what to do.
Should I go the other way or should I stay with you?
Am I making the right choices?
Am I taking the right turns?
My future depends on this,
and the pressure inside burns.
Well I've thought it over and you've helped me to decide.
So gone with the wind is how I choose to ride.
Now let me tell you how I've made this choice,
so shut up for a minute and hear my voice.
While we were together,
you were always up to no good.
And alone many times is how I stood.
One thing in all relationships that is a must,
is the one thing we did not have.
You know, TRUST.
Over the years you've stole and lied.
Which leaves me to wonder,
what other crimes have you denied?
You've made many promises
and many promises you have not kept.
So over and over, alone I have wept.
Now I'm tired and your excuses are getting lame.
So find a new fool, someone else to blame.
Life is much better since I've gotten over you.
So stop with the sorry's and saying how your blue.
Now face the facts and just say goodbye,
because gone with the wind is how I fly.

Secrets

This feels so right, but I know it's so wrong.
I just cant help my feelings that come across so strong.
He knows I want him, and I think he wants me.
We just have to hide it so no one can see.
Things would be easier if we both weren't committed,
but into temptation we both were submitted.
It doesn't matter who is to blame,
Neither said no, so it remains just the same.
Years go by, still with the same anticipation,
that if we met again, we would act without hesitation.
Should we feel guilt for putting our feelings into actions?
Are we wrong for thinking only of our satisfactions?
We chose to continue, so the consequences we must accept.
In hopes that forever, our secrets will be kept.

Somehow, Someway

I wish you were here so I could hold you tight.
I wish I could sleep in your arms all night.
I want to stay up late while you play your guitar.
I want to sit under the sky and wish on a star.
I want to take walks holding your hand.
I want to swim at the beach and make love on the sand.
I want to look in your eyes and kiss in the rain.
I miss you so much and it drives me insane.
I want you every minute and hour of each day.
I wish it could work,
Somehow, someway.

Things I carry

It's late in the night and everyone is asleep
I've tried to think of butterflies
I've tried to count the sheep
but still, I lie awake with nothing to suppress the pain
Alone in the dark with only sorrow on my brain
... To be continued

Ringing in my ears

Jib Jab
you talking all that shit in my ear,
shut the fuck up
I really don't care to hear my dear.
Blah Blah
What's all the fuss about
Yes, I'm sure it's worth the shout, no doubt.
Yada Yada
Please just leave me the fuck alone.
No, I'm not listening, I'm in my zone. Lets postpone.

My so called friend

Crushed-
like a pecan by pliers.
I'm sick of this bitch,
fucking trifling liar.
What the fuck did I ever do?
Why in the world would you want to cross that bridge?
Who will you turn to now?
No one else fucking liked you.
No Bitch, not even a smidge.
I'm the fucking reason that friendship still exists,
And this is how you thank me?
Throw me under the bus and slit my wrists?
You aint nothing but a whore
but I considered you a friend, so I kept quiet.
Now you gonna stomp on my toes.
Are you sure you want this riot?
You're lucky I have respect,
respect enough to keep the promise that I made.
Sure, I won't say shit
I'll do as he asked and let it fade.
But god knows I want to beat you to hell,
bury you in the grave that you dug.
But you aint even worth it
It's squashed,
like this friendship,
swept under the rug.

I don't know why

There are so many things running through my head.
So many things that shouldn't be said.
I still love you and I don't know why.
I just think of us; what we used to be,
And it makes me cry.
After all the shit that you put me through,
You'd think by now I would've stopped loving you.
I've tried to hate,
And I've tried to ignore.
I've tried to pretend like I didn't love you anymore.
It's inevitable that one day I WILL say goodbye,
But right now I can't
And I don't know why

The ending

Sorry for all the wrong I did,
I just didn't know how to handle it.
I went to you to get away,
knowing that I wouldn't stay.
Now we're just so far apart,
and that's the ending
When it didn't even start.

My baby girl

My baby girl with your cute little smile,
I can't help but to sit and stare a while.
My baby girl with your little white bow,
you're my dream come true,
my little miracle that I love so.
My baby girl,
You make my life full of joy and color.
My baby girl,
I love you
And I'm proud to be your mother.

No guarantee

My head hurts and my stomach is in knots as tears drip down my face,
knowing what has to be done but hating it all because no one could take his place.
Caught up in love, lies, agony, and dispair,
what else can I do but say goodbye and end this whole affair.
It doesn't make me happy and it's truly not what I want to do,
but decisions have to be made and I don't want them to be based on me and you.
I wish it could be different and I could promise you how things would be,
but this whole thing is one big risk with no real guarantee.

A man more than a friend

A feeling I can't control
A place I want to be
A touch that won't fade
A face I want to see.
A hand I want to hold
A hug I want to last
A talk I'll remember
A person from the past.
A kiss I can't forget
A walk long ago
A secret that is kept
A love that wants to grow.
A memory miles away
A thought that has no end
A dream with no imperfections
A man more than a friend.

Distance

Silence Sweeps through the room
Thoughts rush to my head
Anxiously awaiting tomorrow
as I lay here in bed.
I stare into the darkness
My eyes grow heavy and dreams begin
Playing out all of my feelings and fantasies that I hold deep within.
Sometimes I never want to awake
because I know in reality it will someday end.
So for now I'll be with you
as much as time allows us to spend.
You're so close to my heart
yet so very far away
But for now
Distance will remain a red light
between tomorrow and today.

What I see

You'll never feel what I feel,
Or see how I see.
So go ahead and judge me,
for if I were you, I would not fail to disagree.
You have never worn my shoes, so I will not expect you to know.
I unintentionally caused hurt and pain, so I can understand your reasoning for asking me to go.
Although it may seem that I chose one over the other, it's a whole different concept to me.
But you do not think the way that I do and this is the reason that you do not see.

Blogging Poetry

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Trouble

Trouble is stirring in the air tonight.
My eyes are open and my thoughts are bright.
Minx is I to whom he refers.
"Photo's" he says; it's what he prefers.
I ponder the impulse; for I to should have a place to circumscribe.
"Do you hear that?" he asks, and then uses psychology to bribe.
Oh no, what have I done? Have I gone to far, pass that place of which I should shun?
"Have fun" he says, as I try to relax.
But my words are less than that of my acts.
I guess I heard it because we parted away;
hesitant to return on another day.

Anger

I can't control my anger and I want to cry.
This is when things start to fly.
I just want to break what ever I see, and I really don't like this part of me.
Sometimes I'll say things that I don't mean, but it's really hard to hold back the things I scream.
To be this way hurts so bad and when I'm hurt it makes me mad.
So please forgive the things I do or say;
but none of this would have happened if I had it my way.

The Journey

Driving 70 miles per hour through the never ending night.
Approach it with caution or go left when all the signs say right.
Care not where you might end up.
At least you won't arrive with a half filled cup.

How I feel

Don't fuck with me, Don't fuck with my pride,
Don't fuck with my emotions, Stop trying to hide.
Don't fuck with my heart; We're supposed to keep it real.
Now I'll do the fucking and tell you how I feel.
You'll never stand up and be true to what you say.
You take responsibility? Yeah, that'll be the day!
These days are never going to come, You know, the ones when you'll be a man instead of living as a bum.
You're nothing but a coward, a lair, a fake.
So no longer will I be the one who you manipulate.
It's sad to see the choices you make and the friends you choose.
And I won't go down with you to have my life sung in the blues.
You always blamed everything on me, I know, It's cool.
But I will sit around no more to be made your fool.
It's my life now and I'll do what I want, just know that I wasn't the one who was trying to stunt.
So no longer can you fuck with me, Or my pride.
I have no more emotions and I don't care if you hide.
You can't fuck with my heart because I kept it real.
You lost out and that's how I feel.

Rhyme

Please stop calling, just go away.
I don't want you anymore, I mean what I say.
I'm not coming back and this time it's real.
Leave me alone, I don't care how you feel.
Stop leaving me messages, stop tying up my line.
Stop sending me texts and I'll be just fine.
Stop calling my friends, get out of my life.
Stop being nosy, I'm not your wife.
The begging won't work, the crying is pretend.
What do I have to do to make you comprehend.
I'm not going to listen, so don't waste your time.
And I hope you understand why I wrote this Rhyme.

The warning

There seldom comes a time
when you must leave my side.
And though I may not like it,
I seldom will abide.
But before I choose to agree,
I'll have to overcome my jealousy.
You're mine
and you're sometimes hard to share.
But I have to understand that you need your time,
and I need to be fair.
I just love you so much,
and I always want you here.
So I wanted to write you this poem
to make one thing a little bit clear.
Freedom once a month is all you should need,
Leave me again
and this warning you should heed.
You left me tonight to go have your fun.
If it happens again,
I'll be waiting with a gun.

The ripening

A peach,
so soft and tender to the touch
be gentle and guard it from bruises and such.
A peach,
wanting to enjoy the great satisfaction from the things that it provides,
eagerly waiting for it to ripen from the place in which it resides.
A peach,
patiently waiting for its owner to wash
Its green leaves are falling, hoping to be squashed.
A peach,
hold it dearly and love it steady
Wait for it, wait for it…Aahh, now it is ready.

Acceptance

Painful is that of which I lust
Impermissible is their thought toward it, but for you I'd thrust.
Acceptance is all we really need.
But for me, it's not from them- to be able to proceed.

Stalling

Trying to think of what to write
but nonsense is all that is in my head.
Thought about it through the night
but the best ideas don't always come while lying in bed.
I sat up for a while and thought about it more,
but thoughts of you were all that I couldn't ignore.
Now here I am still, sunshine and all.
What progress have I made?
This is where I stall...

A late night phone call

You're sexy, you're suave, collected and smart.
You're caring, you're nurturing…truly a work of art.
I admire you and all that you are
And my thoughts of you seem to travel far.
You drive me crazy and at times I'm lost in admiration.
Forgive me for my demeanor and entice me into temptation.
Just look my way one time more,
but willingly,
for I mean not to implore.
Come to me, let me give you pleasure.
Each moment with you is one that I treasure.
Go away now, it can mean nothing at all.
The most we can remain…a late night phone call.