Things I carry

It's late in the night and everyone is asleep
I've tried to think of butterflies
I've tried to count the sheep
but still, I lie awake with nothing to suppress the pain
Alone in the dark with only sorrow on my brain
... To be continued

Ringing in my ears

Jib Jab
you talking all that shit in my ear,
shut the fuck up
I really don't care to hear my dear.
Blah Blah
What's all the fuss about
Yes, I'm sure it's worth the shout, no doubt.
Yada Yada
Please just leave me the fuck alone.
No, I'm not listening, I'm in my zone. Lets postpone.

My so called friend

Crushed-
like a pecan by pliers.
I'm sick of this bitch,
fucking trifling liar.
What the fuck did I ever do?
Why in the world would you want to cross that bridge?
Who will you turn to now?
No one else fucking liked you.
No Bitch, not even a smidge.
I'm the fucking reason that friendship still exists,
And this is how you thank me?
Throw me under the bus and slit my wrists?
You aint nothing but a whore
but I considered you a friend, so I kept quiet.
Now you gonna stomp on my toes.
Are you sure you want this riot?
You're lucky I have respect,
respect enough to keep the promise that I made.
Sure, I won't say shit
I'll do as he asked and let it fade.
But god knows I want to beat you to hell,
bury you in the grave that you dug.
But you aint even worth it
It's squashed,
like this friendship,
swept under the rug.